Just came after watching the final of the Nehru Cup. Indian won 1-0. If I would’ve been a sports journalist I guess I would have to write about the match. But since am not, I can talk of the game without worrying much about facts. Anyhow this is not about soccer.
The past few days have been more or less the same. Living a monotonous life is a cursed blessing. I don’t know if there is any extra time in life as well. One of my colleagues is off to Leh, he is covering the whole distance on a motorcycle. Perhaps, I feel that is some extra time. Whatever, its too complicated.
I am facing some strange kind of allergy these days, which gets compounded by the fact that I don’t sleep till wee hours of the next day. I finished two books. And I thought. I talked too but I slept little. Someone told me this is insomnia, which will aggravate as I grow old. In fact I will age early. I think its like being shown a yellow card. I fear an early exit. But I don’t know if I’ve good reasons to stay in.
I live with my grandma. She moved in her house some months ago. I felt a bit uneasy at start. But since it’s her home and to stay on rent is expensive, I agreed. She has two topics — Why her son left her and went to foreign shores? And, about her husband —My Grandpa. He died some four years ago. Grandma and me don’t talk much. I come late, she is sleeping by that time. We share a strange unsaid relationship. Am I being mean? Should I be given a red card?
To philosophize is easy. To put logic in life is easier. And, really living life by rules is impossible. I guess I need to wait. Wait for things to happen. I can’t blame anyone. We all need to win. Fouls are a part of life. There are no referees. And if there are — Where is my penalty kick?
At last, I wish three things. Yesterday, was ‘Shab-e-barat’, my friend told me it’s kind of a beginning of a new year. Time to start new projects. So I wish three things and I will be mean, very very mean
1. I want to be at peace with myself
2. I want if I put efforts they should bear fruits
3. I want to be Calvin of ‘Clavin and Hobbes’, but I desperately need a Hobbes
Goal.......................
9 comments:
That is one great post! Remarkable use of the metaphor.
Your relationship with your grandma is rather unique; also, it reveals a side of you that you perhaps didn't realize, a side that feels for this lonely lady who appears to live in the past, and/since she is unable to connect with the present, and you end up wondering whether you're guilty for her feeling abandoned. Unknowingly and unwittingly she may perhaps be the referee missing in your game, and she may be the one to award you that 'penalty kick' that you're hoping for.
Great write d!
Penalty kicks are rare and few in between in life...you cant live life depending on them...waiitng for them...their the bonuses, the miracle chances.
Yupp a freind recently told me it doesn't matter if they don't like you, it doesn't matter if they don appreciate nor understand...all that matters is whether u are happy with the person you are.
:) Good luck!!
i throughly enjoyed reading this post, although i am not a soccer fan myself but chance on watching a game on the tele, well written.
"I fear an early exit. But I don’t know if I’ve good reasons to stay in."
My Prof for Literature would have told you that you are suffering from Angst- the dreaded, "existential angst"
:D
i've been a little overwhelmed with that lately, so well!
I guess this is something that all of us wonder at one point or the other. Makes us work harder for that time that we get, don't you think?
well written. very well written :)
hey..read ur blog after quite sometime!! this ones a real gud one !loved te metaphors..Well written!!Play on!! :)
Cheers
Muskaan
Long time! update pls! :)
hobbes is here go get him
http://www.gocomics.com/calvinandhobbes/
bhaichung was india's last great hope.. every game about Bury FC was written about when he played there. but india's NFL? nah, soccer's yet a ways to go seems like.
III....thx.
Thx 2 Prude, AJohn as well.
Crumbs....perhaps you're right about that we work harder. I have no idea where this 'angst' leads you. I guess neither Camu nor Kafka knew where it comes from and where it ends.
Gd 2 cu Muskaan....your comment brought a 'smile'.
Canary...thx for checking the site. I had nothing new to add tht's why this hiatus.
Thx RR.
Dear Anonymous...you're rite. But we need more superstars like Baichung. And perhaps starting a NFL is not a bad idea. I guess starting anything for a cause is not bad. We are a country of over 1bn..even if 1mn watch football...thts not too bad. Wat say?
This if for PRICKY....thx mate. Got your last comment...will touch base with you soon.
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