Hapless Mulling........

DISCLAIMER : I am not a pessimist, I am just Unsuccessful’ and this is what happens when you start thinking in the middle of night, have nothing to do, you cannot talk to any one or if want to rephrase it you don’t want to do so, loneliness is good but than try not thinking when so.

He was all alone, sitting in the comfort of his not so warm room, the tethered quilt though was capable enough so as not to let his feet go numb but it was not the cold outside which bothered him, it was the dense fog inside which we was scared about.

His whole room can be measured as 3 steps horizontally and 5 steps vertically, two pair of shoes, some clothes, a table hosting latest magazines, a chair whose nuts have developed a habit of dropping from nowhere and two bags along with a wooden cot which was caressed by two mattresses and a pillow.

He was feeling disconnected, though technologically he was just a call away from so called his people but sometimes distances do matter.
As boredom once gain set in, he lighted up a cigarette, smoke came out of his nostrils and filled the vacuum, nicotine no longer calmed his senses, yet he was addicted to it, why? He never searched for answers, every time he did so his bleak past came in front of his eyes, laughing, screaming, pointing fingers, he was by now scared of it and future was formless and at present searching for it would be just like asking for a non-delayed flight on a foggy morning!

Taking birth in a middle class family is today world’s greatest sin, it is equivalent of the mythological Trishanku, being poor you just look for satisfying your needs and rich stands for satiating your desires but aspiring for wants is quite troublesome, its like being half-dead………

For Homo-sapiens, living a socially formulated life is quite irksome, you have no freedom, and one barters it for cohesiveness and social support. You are burdened with responsibilities and so forth. “We are social animals” – whenever he read this he gets amused, the word animal still tags along and than aren’t we, we pounce on inferiors to us, get scared of superiors, lust constantly raises its hood amongst us and than the modern word competition isn’t its just a replica of jungle rule, a fight for better living, better grasslands, better game, a fight for good life, better mate, protecting springs-off………


Do world revolves on two axis, Sex and Success, one for survival and other for generation……perhaps sometimes we need not to be philosophical, rather should behave as a traveler experiencing new things as they come along but what if the journey becomes cumbersome?

As he stubbed the cigarette, he read on the packet –Cigarette Smoking Is Injurious To Health’ and than he understood, the whole zest of existence is not inside, its there on the surface, somewhere written in Bold and we either fail to realize it or just ignore it……Unsuccessfully’